| Saturday, August 19th, 2006 |
| 5:56 pm |
gone but not forgotten..... right?
In 22 hours i will be leaving.... its been so long since ive gone on a vacation and im rather excited. all i wanna do is lay 3/4's naked on the beach with a drink in my hand and you by my side!!! and i finally get to do it! if anyone needs a cattle prod or a carton of cigaretts call me on my cell! shit's dirt cheap in the dirty south! maybe we will start a little mom and pop hot dog stand or lawn chair rental buisness and never come back!!! yeah that would be nice! Current Mood:  anxious |
| Friday, December 16th, 2005 |
| 9:04 pm |
forecast 2006:
i havent bought a single christmas present for anyone yet, christmas is lame anyway. i found a band finally! havent had a chance to get together with everyone yet but hopefully we'll be ready to roll by spring/summer. we're still looking for a singer so if you know anyone that can scream their ball off let me know! we're going to be doing mostly as i lay dying, and black dahlia type stuff. i might be moving soon, bens mom is going to let us rent her old house from her so that should be cool:3000 sq. feet with a pool and jacuzzi in west jewfield. my cousin moved in with me last night cause his roommates kicked him out. its all good though cause my video game collection just doubled and now i will always have someone to play music with. oh yeah..... snow is gay Current Mood:  tired |
| Monday, November 7th, 2005 |
| 5:32 pm |
the lydian mode is mega gay!!!
ive been working on my chops lately... gotta get them back up to speed! but ive been playing wierd beethoven stuff rather than the usual speed metal for a change. its alot harder than i ever would have imagined! you should try it.... really! casey wants me to go to jersey so i can rock out with my cock out...... we'll see about that....? i need a fucking band! not some lame ass homos that want to play coversongs in mommys basement. a real band. Current Mood:  bored |
| Saturday, October 29th, 2005 |
| 5:41 pm |
boots are cool... just not when theyre kicking towards your ear.
i got kicked in the ear thursday night at the bdm show and its still really really soar. im fucking 6 foot 2. how the hell does someone kick that high? the zombie party is tonight! im fucking stoked cause i get to wear a 3 piece suit covered in blood and gore while drinking excessive amounts of beer. halloween should come once a month not once a year!!! see you fucks at the party! |
| Thursday, October 27th, 2005 |
| 1:54 pm |
thanks twocows thanks alot!
dont use twocows or any of their mirrors!! those little bastards gave me some fucking mega virus that corrupted my hard drive in about 2 mintues flat!!! my pc wouldnt even turn on ! it erased my entire operating system. luckily i was still under warranty so after a few phonecalls and a full week of waiting they sent me a new one! but i lost all of my stolen software and now i cant make music!!!!! fuck those cows! both of them the bdm show is tonight!!! fuck yeah Current Mood:  pissed off |
| Saturday, October 8th, 2005 |
| 4:45 pm |
suicide notes and butterfly kisses.
set the scene with smoke and mirrors, cause the piano still seems to read my mind. so comatose for twenty years, but depressants help to pass the time. lay down, mark the grave, where the searchlights find us drinking by the mausoleum door, and they found you on the bathroom floor. |
| Monday, October 3rd, 2005 |
| 2:55 pm |
there are no penguins in alaska.
i went to kid rocks house today. he has really good taste (for a redneck). thanx again everyone for making my birthday a good one!!! i had alot of fun this past weekend. "read between the keys, that is where you will find the difference between math and art." im freaking out.... but whatever happens, everything will be okay. i'm not going anywhere. Current Mood:  nervous |
| Monday, September 26th, 2005 |
| 5:47 pm |
blah blah blah....
if you took a piece of everyones livejournal and compressed it, this is wht you'd get: i love my( boyfriend/girlfriend) stupid lovesong lyrics.. a quiz about your anal sex skills. another quiz to help you find wich member of the o.c. best represents yourself. a hole lot of typos. highschool bullshit. the occasional interesting opinion or funny story. pointless rambling. and casey not making ay sense at all. |
| Monday, September 19th, 2005 |
| 4:25 pm |
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| Sunday, September 18th, 2005 |
| 1:34 pm |
now that ive washes my hands...
things are so much better now. ive been really sick all weekend but it doesnt even matter.. i figured shit out. i wasnt depressed because of you. i was depressed because i let her down, and i broke a few promises. things are so much better now. |
| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005 |
| 11:08 pm |
no title... titles are for books and important people
ok here's the deal... most of my close friends already know the situation ive put myself in.... but let me refresh your memory: ill use numbers rather than names.... dont wanna piss any of you off. before i begin.... butterflies are not flying insects, butterflies are the feeling you get when the heart refuses to send blood to any other part of the body, resulting in that dizzy weak in the knees feeling.. butterflies are the reason im single. my junior year of high school i met number 1,i left my girlfriend at the time and we dated for almost a year, things started to fall apart... we were young and dumb. i then dated her best friend. i left her friend because i still loved her. number 1 and i got back together..she somehow forgave me.. and we dated for almost another year.. after we graduated things changed, schedules got crazy. i had a ring in layaway, she had other things in mind... i never got over it. number 2 and i were friends for quite some time.. she moved away after high school, and then returned earlier this year. we hung out and things progressed. our relationship (or lack thereof) was based souly on convienience, nothing more. i met number 3 at one of my shows, a friend of a friend..( butterflies ) i left number 2 for number 3.... traded in an old friend for a younger,more attractive model.... 3 and i dated for 3 months.... she was one of the most caring, loving, and fun people i have ever met... shes awesome. number 1 found me on the internet ( butterflies ) and we began to talk for the first time in almost 2 years. i began lying to number 3. went behind her back and spent every single second i could with number 1. (butterflies) my conscience couldnt take it... im not a liar. i told number 3 what i did, and that i wanted to pursue my feeling for number 1. i told number 1 how i felt ( to a certain extent )and still feel. she told me she needed time to figure stuff out... no need to rush anything. i was okay with that. **** there have only been two things that have brought me to tears since the age of 10: the death of my grandfather, and number 1. **** although i try, it gets harder and harder every day not to fall head over heels in love with her. again.( butterflies ) ive never met anyone that can turn my whole life upside down like number 1 can ( butterflies ) i dont know if writing this will help matters at all, but if i seem distant.... this is why. i apologize. i could really use some advice.... comment if you want to. Current Mood:  confused |
| Monday, September 12th, 2005 |
| 9:19 pm |
no sappy lyrics in this one ( i promise )
so fucking bored.... i dont know why im even waiting...... i already know the answer. bite me once shame on you, bite me twice..... shame on you again, bite me three times.... shame on me. i think im gonna go get some coffee soon. if you wanna talk, ill be at village place. |
| Sunday, September 11th, 2005 |
| 9:39 pm |
so much.
how does it feel to know you're everything i need?, the butterflies in my stomache they could bring me to my knees. how does it feel to know you're everything i want? ill have a hard tim sayin this so ill sing it in a song. i adore they way you carry yourself, with the grace of a thousand angels overhead. and i love the way the galaxy stars to melt. when we become one. how does it feel? how does it feel when we get locked into a stare, please dont come lookin for me when i get lost in a mess of your hair. how do you feel when everything you know gets thrown aside? never fear my dear cause we have nothing left to hide. i love the way you carry yourself, with the grace of a htousand angels overhead. and i love the way the galaxy starts to melt. hold on to me, if you feel your grip getting loose girl, and if you feel your grip getting loose know that i wont let you.. die. im ready.. to run away... with you. are you ready? are you ready to run away with me? pack your things we can leave today. say our goodbyes and get on the train, just you and i and the sweet unknown. we'l call eachother our home. **** theres much much more to the song but you get the point... ***** Current Mood:  okay |
| 5:27 pm |
~those college boys aint got shit on me~
so emo it hurts.....  went to visit jenn at western yesterday... it was pretty sweet. woke up next to amy and got to listen to her freak out over some scrambled eggs....... good stuff! Current Mood:  dirty |
| Monday, September 5th, 2005 |
| 11:34 pm |
new american classic
"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head." We could live through these letters or forget it all together See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away Just ask the question come untie the knot Say you won't care, say you won't care Retrace the steps as if we forgot Say you won't care, say you won't care Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt And there's one thing I can do nothing about When all that we need is just a reaction It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore If chasing our dreams is just a distraction I want to remember when I know that I can't go back Just ask the question come untie the knot Say you won't care, say you won't care Retrace the steps as if we forgot Say you won't care, say you won't care Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt There's one thing I can do nothing There's one thing I can do nothing There's one thing I can do nothing about. Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot Say you won't care, say you won't care Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot Say you won't care, say you won't care Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt And there's one thing I can do nothing There's one thing I can do nothing There's one thing I can do nothing about |
| 6:29 pm |
carpe deim
went to the gym this morning with some of the guys from work that was cool. gotta get back in shape!!!! my trainer measured my body fat and it was only 5.85 precent..... not bad for someone that eats taco bell at least 5 days a week! anyways.. waiting for amy to come over and watch a movie or two with me, its gonna be kinda hard to spend time with her now that shes starting school tomorrow :( gotta make the most of the time i have. ....looking back i know i made the right descision, but this change in lifestyle is killing me! i havent felt this way in a long long time and its growing old very quickly. im afraid to get my hopes up. im afraid to let my guard down. in conclusion, call me if you wanna hang out because chances are ill just be sitting at home with nothing to do....... Current Mood:  discontent |
| Friday, September 2nd, 2005 |
| 3:00 pm |
patiently waiting...make a move.
....there's so much i want to say, but dont have the balls to. monday seems so far away. next weekend seem even further. i wish i could just tell you how i feel. i wish i knew how to read your mind. i wish you were here! Current Mood:  hopeful |
| Thursday, September 1st, 2005 |
| 12:53 am |
i hope i didnt freak you out.... the whole situation looked a lot better on paper. im really looking forward to tomorrow. although shopping was a bit of a pain in the ass im sure the time and money spent will be well worth it. the sooner i got to sleep, the sooner morning will come. time for bed. |
| Monday, August 29th, 2005 |
| 9:39 pm |
the jet set life is gonna do us in!
last night was fun! although i started to regret staying out so late after about my 11th hour of work. after 14 hours of physical labor on 4 hours of sleep the mind starts to wander....... ****** everytime gets better and better, i know after time that will fade and routine will start to set in but i cant see that happening for a while. hopefully you'll still be around when that all happens! i havent felt this way in a long long time. not since the last time i was with you. although extremely happy! i feel vulnerable at times and it scares me. im so used to being in control (for lack of a better word). its so strange when the ball is in someone elses court. i guess ill have to learn to deal for now. so scared that ill smother the flame, so afraid to push you away, guess you just need some time.... cause the light still burns brighter everyday, so wierd how things fall into place, ive always said the third times a charm! Current Mood: tired |
| Saturday, August 27th, 2005 |
| 4:57 pm |
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